My mind is so full right now. Im emotionally and physically exhausted. I’ve spent the entire weekend in tears. I know that’s it’s been a hard weekend for everyone. After a weekend of tears, praying and soul searching we have decided to wait this out. It really stinks that it may be September 1st before we have any answers. I can honestly say that I’m having a hard time right now. In my prayers this weekend I’ve asked God for strength, courage and faith. I’ve lost sight of it and I need it back. I want to believe again that we will bring our son home from Vietnam. My friend sent me an email this morning with some encouraging words. It’s from her daily devotional book-Jesus Calling. She suggested that I post somewhere so that I could be reminded of this daily. I do need this because I am week right now.

Come to me with empty hands and an open heart, ready to receive abundant blessings.
I know the depth and breath of your neediness. Your life has been difficult, draining you of your strength. Come to Me for nurtures. Let Me fill you with My presence: I in you, and you in Me. My power flows most freely into week ones aware of their need for Me. Faltering steps of dependence are not lack of faith: they are links to My presence.

Time

Time seems to have flown by this past year. It’s almost hard to believe that a year ago today, we were added to the waiting list. It’s amazing how times seems to have flown by, but then again, go by so slow. Not sure if that makes sense but it’s how I feel.

It is my prayer that things start to pick up in Vietnam. I pray for all of the children who are in the orphanages. There are so many children who need loving families. I pray that God will give us strength to get thru the hard days that we have. These past few weeks have been kind of emotional for me. I pray for the families waiting to travel and for everyone on the list.

I have tried not to read blogs too much lately. But, I have found that I do find encouragement from reading them. We all go thru the same emotions daily. So it’s nice to find comforting words, faith and perseverance from others. Thanks to everyone for sharing and giving me comfort. I also love seeing the traveling families.

I do have so many things right now to keep me busy. We are moving and I am such a pack rat. I didn’t really realize it until now. I really have my work cut out for me. Wish me luck—I have a hard time of letting go of things. Im trying to part with my first care bear, my first cabbage patch doll and my first Raggedy Anne and Andy dolls. I can’t pass them on to Hannah because she doesn’t really play with dolls too much. So I guess it’s time to let them go.

Quote for the day-

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.”
-Unknown

Almost one year---

April 23, 2007 is the day that we were added to the list. I remember the day and remember being so happy and filled with excitement. I honestly felt that we would travel to bring our son home this year. I realized a few weeks ago that it was not going to be a possibility. Man, that was a hard day. That day was Tuesday, April 8th. I didn't know it at the time but our dossier was logged in that same day. So now thinking back I really had something to be thankful for that same day. For the days ahead I am going to try and remember that our son will come home. It may not be this year, but it will happen. Here is a little poem that I know we have all heard before but I wanted to post it again.

I haven't met you yet or seen your face,

but in my heart you hold a place.

My hope grows with each passing day,

even though you're miles away.

I know you're there waiting for me,

as I am here waiting to see,

the child God has sent from above,

to make me a mother and share all my love.

Karen Cooper

Cool News is......................

that our dossier made it to Vietnam and is currently in translation. They are suppose to let us know when it's been logged in. That's great news!!!!!!!

Update on April 9th--I just got an email that our dossier was logged in to the DIA in Hanoi, on April 8th.

Now we just sit back and wait for our child.